First kiss... need some addvice.?

the kiss is going to be awkward for my first kiss i was like blaaaah becuz he used his tongue it was warm and like slimy idk saliva gross XD it gets better tho and im guessing its a long distance relationship honey hes probably lying about the love its so easy to say words that u dont mean and make it convincing it wouldnt surprise me if he had another gf in the state he lived in oh btw feelings during ur teen years suck and dont go by how ur feeling in the moment think about the long term trust me one day ull be like i hate this and then i love this and sad then happy then angry its just really emotional xD so dont do anything stupid btw i do believe in true love at young ages but u have to be with them for more than just a year to find out and they actually have to be there